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I’ve been called stubborn…
I don’t really know what that means,
as I’ve never used that word,
to describe another person,
but I knew at the time,
I was under the influence,
of projection…
What someone else believed,
to be my truth,
didn’t ring true,
for me…
And it seemed to be,
the pot,
calling the kettle,
black…
When I worked for,
the Canadian Mental Health Association,
taking participants on camping trips,
in Supernatural British Columbia,
at the age of twenty,
I was described as,
having a seemingly unflappable nature…
I don’t know if that is true either,
because there are a list of things,
that can get my knickers,
in a pretty tight twist,
and that list is specific,
to adult perceptions,
of children…
When I was twenty-one,
I worked as a Canada Customs Officer,
at the Peace Arch border crossing…
They wanted me to make,
a career out of it,
because of how I could see profiles…
Profiles like,
undeclared Smith and Wesson revolvers,
trying to make their way,
up to Alaska…
For two years,
I worked with a student,
diagnosed with Prader-Willi Syndrome…
Prader-Willi is associated with low IQ scores,
and delayed,
intellectual development…
This six year old girl refused,
to label colours and shapes,
correctly…
They simply,
didn’t interest her…
What held,
her attention,
were relationships…
She could identify,
the family constellation—
parents and siblings,
of every single one,
of her twenty-two classmates…
She knew which teachers were,
in the school,
by the cars she could see,
in the parking lot…
And she could name,
the adults,
she was connected to,
by the sound,
of their footsteps,
coming,
down the hall…
The district speech and language pathologist wanted to document,
according to the tests,
she wheeled around,
in her suitcase,
full of standards,
that this student was operating,
at the intellectual level,
of a two year old…
Based on my own experiences,
with two year olds,
I’m not convinced,
we have any idea,
what the intellectual level,
of a two year old,
actually is,
as every two year old,
that I have ever met,
has been one of a kind,
by universal design…
At a School Based Team meeting,
I outlined the observations,
of the educational assistant,
who worked with this girl,
in plain language…
The response I heard was,
We can’t report that…
WE haven’t seen,
or heard her,
do THOSE things…
From my point of view,
I don’t see colours,
around people,
but I don’t need to see them,
for myself,
to know,
that other people do…
By now,
even Science knows,
that the observer,
has a significant effect,
on the observed…
I know that beliefs don’t account,
for much,
in the dominant discourse,
but as a teacher,
I believe,
I have an ethical obligation,
to report student strengths,
even if the official descriptors,
for reporting,
don’t offer up,
the language,
or recognition,
of what a student knows,
and can do…
So in this case,
as in so many others,
I made up,
my own language,
and insisted,
on reporting it,
for this student’s records…
And I refused,
to sign off,
on language,
that limited her capacity,
based on tests,
in box sets…
The speech and language pathologist said,
You need,
to meet me,
half way…
I said,
WHEN you can tell me,
where half way is,
I will try,
to meet you there…
Right now,
I’m not even sure,
that you and I are operating,
in the same sphere,
of understanding…
By the end of grade two,
which would be considered significantly,
behind schedule,
this little girl knew her colours,
inside and out,
with precision…
When I asked the educational assistant,
who worked her magic,
all over our classroom,
how she had gotten,
the necessary message,
across,
she said,
Thongs…
I asked,
Whose???
She said,
Mine…
The government prescribes learning outcomes,
for mandated curriculum,
but no one can control,
how teachers get to,
every student will…
This is where the beauty,
of professional creativity,
and imaginative education,
steps in,
and takes over…
And when children are participating,
and co-creating worlds,
at a level of complexity,
and connectedness,
that is unrecognized by authority,
sensitive and caring educators,
will do everything,
in their right mind,
to support student success,
within the system…
Even if that means,
showing a little lace…
Skraelings…
I want it in writing that I watched the Canucks vs. Flames game Saturday night and I was left with mixed emotions…
I’ll start with the close ending…
when Kyle Wellwood got a goal in the shootout…
I sent him some thought medicine a second or so before he headed down the ice and across the blue line…
I said,
YOU can do this…
And then he cleaned up…
properly…
with the laid back efficiency of a Virgo in Capricorn…
I had difficulty settling down to watch the game…
Frank kept saying…
Philosophydoll, you need to focus…
you have to sit still and put your attention on the HD screen…
I couldn’t put my finger on my scattered mind…
The game was exciting but it was like watching two tugs pulling in different directions…
Hockey violence against hockey sense…
Rick Rypien believes that his course of action raises fan and player energy…
In the post-game I heard him say,
It brings out the best in our game…
I couldn’t help but notice that the Canucks were defeated, despite his and Hordichuk’s persistent invitations to fight…
This made me wonder about air-quality…
and how six healing sounds pre- and post- game might create a better direction for team performance…
If even a few members of the team privately committed to an organ-ick detox program, they could create enough of surge during the play-offs to draw a Stanley Cup…
without bloodletting…
or crayons…
Mike Milbury might send me a flat of pansies, with emotion, for my opinion…
and he is free to do so…
Getting flowers through the holes in his country’s Homeland Security should be effortless in comparison to smacking a man down on his back with a penny loafer…
In my book making rules for creating change only drives things underground…
and it plays into the hands of the lowest common denominator…
a denominator that gets lower with every Tweet…
I prefer riding on the certainty of chaos…
and seeing what unfolds…
in good time…
There is a higher intelligence that drives things whether we have awareness of it or not…
and it will drive hockey into a form that we can all be proud of…
as Canadians…
Just like Mats Sundin, Daniel and Henrik are here for a reason…
and it is so much bigger than what we can see…
on the ice…
When the Sedins are in cahoots with their triplet, Mr. Bowinarrow…
they’re tuned into a classic rock frequency…
And on that station hockey sense doesn’t need any commentary, or a map for how to get a puck into a net…
it just happens…
360 degrees…
with no separation…
Hat trick…
This week I returned to flamenco dance class…
It was great to be back on the floor for a new season…
Wednesday night is bata de cola…
I didn’t know how things would go after three weeks of sitting on the couch and a snow-tubing strain in my deltoids…
But during the first time turning across the floor with a steep cross lift I heard a quiet Olé as I danced past teacher…
I wasn’t sure if she was talking to me…
Then I heard it again during my next traverse across the floor…
This time it sounded more direct…
And then,
during continuous vuelta,
which is where your skirt does not touch the floor,
as you rotate 360 degrees without stopping,
from one side of the room to the other,
she simply stood there,
in a place where I couldn’t avoid her,
and made eye contact…
She said,
Olé!!! LOOK you’re doing it!!!
And then I felt it,
and this wasn’t the first time…
Taoists call this feeling the internal orgasm,
and in their path of initiation,
a lot of practice with a master is required to achieve this sensation…
I’m not so sure…
I’ve learned from my past experiences,
and I now refuse to follow any master…
All I was doing was dancing,
in a spiral,
with all my clothes on…
We are conditioned to think that sexual energy is located in our pants,
and that we need someone else to find it…
It might start in your package,
but you can move it all around,
and use it everywhere,
for any creative process,
or action…
There are as many ways of using it,
as there are people…
And the more debris you move out of your pipes the more the energy flows…
From my experience,
a clogged drain,
and the junk you can pull out of it,
is one of the most disgusting things I have ever laid eyes on…
But we all see differently,
and my friend Prudence likes an invite when long haired friends clean out the drains,
of the bathroom sink,
and the shower…
Gross,
I know…
But one really shouldn’t be so judgemental…
The morning after my acupuncture appointment to evacuate dirty chi,
I had a dream that a hair was poking out of my nose,
like the limb of a Daddy Longlegs…
I started to pull on the fine hair,
expecting it to be an easy task,
but as I pulled and pulled,
this hair transformed,
into a thick timeline of dark cultural-historical activity,
that I could see stretching through my body,
all the way down to the inside of my big toe…
I finally got to the end of my rope,
and threw it onto the floor,
like a tangled roto-rooter…
I was amazed at what had been removed from my body,
and I felt fresh as an Irish spring…
Then I looked deep into my nose,
and it was all whitewashed like a brand new picket fence…
As soon as I woke up I called Prudence,
to tell her about the hairy drain that I had cleaned out of myself…
We only had a minute to talk because my phone battery doesn’t hold its charge any more,
and she was receiving company…
She laughed and thanked me for the information…
I thanked her for being the kind of person that I could share my dreams with,
first thing in the morning,
with no hesitation…
When I told Starshine (10) about this dream she said,
Don’t write about this…
If you do your readers are going to be re-pulsed…”
I said,
It’s my direct intention,
to separate the wheat from the chaff,
with extremes of lived experience…



